Cleaning up the birdshit

It will have been one month this weekend since my mother’s passing. We’ve kept busy and we’ve tried to keep our emotions at bay for the most part, allowing ourselves only spurts of grieving. I still hope that maybe if I keep busy for long enough, I might let the passage of time dull grief.

But really, if not for my very supportive and loving wife and my darling baby boy, I don’t know how I’d have been able to hold it together. For Naomi and I, our Annus Horribilis began last November with the sudden death of her brother in Shanghai. Since then, it seems to have been one shocking piece of news after another.

And watching Japan reel from the earthquake is just… I don’t know.

My sister’s friends who’ve been similarly bereaved because of their parents’ sudden demise tell her that ‘the first few weeks is usually spent looking for things’.

My sister, brother and I have been doing just that – keys, passwords, safe combination numbers, bank statements – some have been found, and some haven’t. There have been moments of levity though, with the discovery of some of my mother’s handwritten memos – to her staff and to herself, some of which are about the most bizarre matters.

In one memo she talks about contemplating buying a parrot for my father because she thinks keeping one would provide him company and conversation. (Papa is homebound because of Parkinson’s).

The memo ends with this: “Kenny (my younger brother) says birds are dirty and you have to clean up all the birdshit. So, KIV”.

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6 responses to “Cleaning up the birdshit”

  1. Benedict Thambiah Avatar
    Benedict Thambiah

    Sorry for your loss man. Lost my mum in 2002. Was very hard but life needs to be lived. Take care.

    1. Mr Miyagi Avatar

      Thanks Benedict

  2. Tan Cb Avatar
    Tan Cb

    Sorry to learn about the demise of your mom. I lost my eldest sister in 2006, and then my elder brother, in 2008. They were both very strong siblings who always held the family together. Their passing left a huge void in me. And I now worry a lot about my mom (she has dementia and ailing health ever since she had a stroke). I have never viewed life quite the same way after the passing of my siblings. I used to give my all to my job and my bosses. Now, I know all things can wait, and family time comes first. I spent more time at home now, just to keep my mom company, and I am better at putting up with her repetitive questions and conversations.

    On some days, I still have the awkward recollection about the past and will be overwhelmed with some guilt, thinking about the things I could have done for my siblings. But I guess we are lucky to still have significant others around – it helps to deal with the loss immensely, over a period of time. They remind me that there is the future to look forward to.

    Take care.

  3. bookjtinyisland Avatar

    I wanted to say I’m so sorry, but it just feels like words. The loss of a mother is something too immense for words. A mother is divine….My heart is with you and your family…

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